ANTHROPARION

anthroparion
ANTHROPARION

pen on paper
2018 - 350 x 350 mm

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An anthroparion is a diminutive form of yourself that has not yet been integrated integrated. It consists of that which you do not like in yourself and the character traits you do not want to accept for whatever reason. When making the choice of consciously and willingly looking for it, it is possible to find it. Usually its condition is unfinished, mutilated and very primitive.

Mine for example lived in cellars beneath the cellars of my mind and had no skin. At first, when I met 'it' by 'accident' during a kind of hypnotic session that got out of hand - the hypnotiser was very self-assured but didn't really know what he was doing - I was very afraid of 'it'. When I came out of hypnosis, I was still partly below. Later on I realised that, to be able to be fully here on this plane, it was necessary to go back and seek the confrontation. When, after many unsucsessful attempts, I finally found my way back into those cellars and we faced eachother, I felt a very deep pity for this semi-being and then we sort of merged together. I assumed that not much had happened since, except that, when I revisited those cellars, they were better lit, clean and empty. But the wound was still there, and the integration took its time. A second phase started in 2017 and lasted untill about the time I write this, February 18th 2019.

I often mused upon Chiron, the wounded healer who could not die, and also these verses, written by my favourite poet Rainer Maria Rilke, who wrote in his Eight Elegy:

Dieses heißt Schicksal: gegenüber sein
und nichts als das und immer gegenüber.


(This is what is called Fate: facing it, nothing but that and always facing it.)